If I had a pen, I would be doodling now

I have nothing to blog about right now but I’m still typing away intensely, hoping that things will start to flow out as I hit the keys. I have no idea what kind of logic is that but at least it got me to the second sentence right? And maybe to the end of a long post? Hopefully.

I got a job offer recently but unfortunately or fortunately Mr Sheikh has now decided that I'm not too bad a SAHM, hence he has flatly refused my resignation from his employment. By declaring my importance and capability in running his home, he have awaken the snob in me. I was thinking I shouldn’t let go of this chance to ask for more benefits but being the non-ambitious person that I am, I’m feeling rather satisfied as it is. The one thing I still haven’t got my hands on is his credit card but that’s not a wise idea. Not in my case at least!

I hear the rain outside my room window but it’s sad that I don’t ‘feel’ the rain anymore like I used to when I was younger. First of all, the air in Singapore remains humid and stagnant despite the heavy downpour. There is nothing cold about the rain anymore! I bet even the rheumatics are comfortably warm and pain-free in our rainy weather! Secondly, I don’t get to feel a single drop of rain on my skin because I’m either inside the house or if I’m outside, I’m obliged to take shelter like most civilised citizens do. I think I will need to ‘forget’ my umbrella one of these days and get a good soak! Must make a mental note to wear darker colours on days when it might rain.

I’m feeling kind of stuck at this sentence but I’m not relenting!

If I was writing a composition I would be doodling by now, but here I am letting the laptop hamper my creativity. By the way, the most creative I ever got was to create a walk-in wardrobe using a bamboo pole and some old curtains. That happened over 15 years ago and I still like the idea! Maybe I’ll construct a slightly more sophisticated and updated version if my cupboard ever collapse! Which, I’m quite certain, is not likely to happen.

I haven’t had the chance to drive our car for the past 3 weeks, but that is not the issue. I might be driving over the coming weekend and I’m just a tad worried my foot might suffer from memory loss and fail to differentiate the brake and the accelerating pedal. Or maybe my hand might accidently shift the gear into reverse while the car is moving forward! Does anyone else have such fears? Just before I drive off I normally conduct a serious moment of prayer where I beg the Almighty to keep all living things out of my way. Ok to be honest I go more like “Ya Allah please don’t let me kill anyone today”.

Now that I’m talking (typing) about it, I realise that my single short prayer in the car seem more fervent than the numerous lengthy prayers at home. This is the reason why I like looking at bigger pictures of myself. There is so much room for self-improvement! 

I’m actually quite happy that I reached this far in my post, time to stop the incessant typing and enjoy the stuffy, rainy weather.